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I felt (because there was definitely still an I) a slight pressure and voices calling me towards this MIND. I knew more clearly than anything else I have ever known that it was benign and loving. I believe the voice that urged me in a very gentle way was that of the Shepherdess herself. I felt that there were other beings there as well, gentle loving creatures that are always around us but whom we simply cannot see in our everyday world. I knew that this was the true goal of all human beings to leave behind this material world and to join our MINDS with the UNIVERSAL MIND that had become manifest to me in this moment. It felt like I was truly going home. I felt warm, safe and secure. There was no fear. I would gladly have left my body behind to become this. I knew in my heart that THIS IS THE TRUE GOAL OF ALL SENTIENT BEINGS. This is true salvation.
I remember visualizing my mind as floating out of the top of my head in a dense cloud of blue-green smoke to join UNIVERSAL MIND. I did not achieve this perfect union because I could also feel something holding me back. After a while the effects started to wear off. I did not want “them” to leave me behind. I felt as if I was being left behind and I actually called out to “them” to not leave me. When I looked at my watch about 60 minutes had passed, although it seemed much shorter.
The after effects were equally amazing. Although back in the material world I did not crave another bowl. In fact I was felt completely satisfied and at ease. I felt wholly in the present. I felt no anxiety, I had no worries, I had no cravings, I felt no desires, and I was neither hungry nor thirsty. Although I suffer from Asthma, my lungs felt better than ever. Later that day I went to the beach and truly enjoyed the beauty of the occasion, in a way that I rarely have.
CONCLUSION: The MOST IMPORTANT thing I learned from this experience were the answers to questions that I have been asking myself for a very long time. Who am I? Where do I come from? Why do I exist? Is there a higher being? What is my purpose in life? I truly believe that I can say I EXPERIENCED the answers for myself to these questions. I truly experienced the answers in a way that leaves no room for doubt. The answer revealed to me was that the material world, the world of flesh, the world of objects is irrelevant. They are actually hindrances to the real purpose of our lives which is to reunite our minds with UNIVERSAL MIND. It almost seems that when we are born a part of this UNIVERSAL MIND is detached from itself and implanted into us and through out our material lives it craves to be reattached to itself, to be whole again. I know that SD allowed me at the very least to truly experience this and to understand it, even though it is not my time to be reunited with UNIVERSAL MIND. Perhaps when we die this happens automatically. I obviously cannot say. I am very grateful to the Shepherdess for granting me this vision, and am profoundly in awe of her gifts. I cannot have come to this understanding if I prayed for 100 years or read all the philosophy books in the world.
Finally I would just like to say that the effects of SD are powerful and awesome. I believe if you are truly and sincerely seeking answers to the eternal questions of life the Shepherdess will guide you to a beautiful and illuminating place. However if you are simply looking for a recreational drug to give you a high, SD is not the answer.